Seperation

To be seperated, is like taking something away from one's body. From what I have believed in, I feel that I am seperated right now. I believe that man and woman each possess one wing, and only when they are together, can they join in flight to reach eden. Of course we don't really possess this "wing", but it is a nice "fairytale" to begin with anyways.

I am alone, yes. I feel empty, yes. The feeling of seperation hits me hard, lingers on, and makes me very listless, very lifeless. Yet I can't make myself convinced enough to get close to any woman at all. Hurt too many times, with the wrong reasons. Shown how women in Singapore always react when I get close to them. The coldness that comes from them, pushes me away from them more and more.

My friends all disagree with my thinking of condemning all the women in Singapore, but I still think that it is a fact that majority of the women are like that, will be like that even in time to come.

The Out-Cast

After being treated the way they have treated me, and after being shown how they actually prefer to choose who they like, I have come to a conclusion on how Singaporean women behave. (Women who read this will not like it, but I still think it is a major truth for the majority of the woman populace)

The women (ladies/girls) tend to be materialistic in Singapore, likes to receive gifts from guys (they think it is their privilage). When in a r/s with a Singaporean woman, she will tend to demand that the guy have some of the 5 C's, if not, at least buy things that she likes (even though the guy can't afford).

The women also tend to be selective about who their partner is (very true), looks often come in as the most important quality, followed by money and qualification level. If a guy falls anywhere outside their "type" of "ideal" guy, the poor soul will be rejected straight away, without being given a chance at all.

Then there's also the flirty women, who tends to make a guy fall for her, just for the fun of it. They do not even want to be in a proper relationship, and everything they do, is only for themselves. This type can be having characters of the 2 above types.

There are more which I can't really put to words yet, but the 3 above can already say a lot abt the women in Singapore.

You might wonder, why have I put this description of women up? The reason is very simple, I just can't even tolerate getting near any Singaporean woman at all. The 3 "types" can already make me break out in cold sweat. I am not saying I hate them (hate is a word that I personally think is too light of a word), nor do I despise them (hell, I'm despised the whole lot of time too). I am saying that I can no longer like a woman anymore, because of what I have experienced.

I feel like I'm an outcast, because I'm forever different from others. My lady friend quoted me, saying that "I have knocked over all the women on board the ship". I just replied, "I'm the one in the sea, with no one saving me, and all the women are happily on the ship, sailing away from me"

Ranting?

You might find that I'm ranting, that I'm a loser for posting this entry. The truth is, I never bothered how anyone saw me. I'm just making myself very clear. I may not be ready for any relationship with any Singaporean ladies at all, for a very long time. I was telling my good buddy, "For me, I'll either stay single until I die, or I'll become a monk. For a rare case, maybe a lady will change me, and make me like her, but the first 2 will be more probable for me."

Women make me sick, esp. Singaporean women. For those ladies who are my good friends, don't worry, you are the minority that escaped from my "hate"(not a correct word to use, but I can't find any other word in english to describe how I feel).

I forgot to add a song that explains something about what I said.

Pink - Most Girls

I never cared too much for love
It was all a bunch of mush that I just did not want
Paid was the issue of the day
If a girlfriend's got some game
Couldn't be more fly, gettin paid was everything
But I'm not every girl and I don't need that world to validate me
Cuz shorty's got a job, shorty's got a car, shorty can pay her own rent
Don't wanna dance if it is not in my heart

[Chorus:]MOST GIRLS want a man with the bling bling
Got my own thing, got the ching ching
I just want real love
MOST GIRLS want a man with the mean green
Don't wanna dance if he can't be everything that I dream of
A man that understands real love

I was a girl about the floss
It was all about the cost, how much he spent on me
Seek, for a man who's got the means
To be givin you diamond rings
It's what every fly girl could want or even dream
But I'm not every girl and I don't need no G to take care of me
Cuz shorty's got a job, shorty's got a car, shorty can pay her own rent
Don't wanna dance if it is not in my heart, no no

[Repeat Chorus 2x]

But I'm not every girl
And I don't need no G to take care of me, no
Cuz shorty's got a job, shorty's got a car, shorty can pay her own rent
Don't wanna dance if it is not in my heart, oh most girls
[Repeat Chorus 2x]
Cuz I'm not most girls, don't wanna dance if he can't be everything
I, I just want real love, said I gotta have real love
Everything that, can you be everything that I dream of