At the Beginning

Yup, I'm back at square one. I seem to have found my goal in life and am working on a plan of what I will have to do in a couple of years to come. Army isn't going to last forever, and I'm in need of a stable income so that I can at least plan for my future.

I wonder what has come over me for the past few years, but the things that I have done has given me nothing but my own self-destruction. I've been reminded by a good friend of mine about what life in reality is about, and also about the life I'm living now is going to make me a useless person.

I've also given it much thought about the relationship thing. Now I know the reason as to why women have an inclination to seek for guys who has money. Being materialistic will depend on what kind of person that woman is, but majority will need a sense of security. Knowing that the guy will provide for the future life - housing, kids, etc. Of course all these were told to me by my good friend too. Things that make me blind are cleared because of her.

Single for a good cause

This choice of mine will help me with my studies and my work. I'm seriously considering to sign on with the army after I get my diploma. At least this will allow me to save up for the future for anything that comes. Perhaps until then, when I am already more or less settled down with a stable income then the search for the "life-partner" will begin.

It isn't as simple as just love anymore. The responsibilities that comes with love and having a family in Singapore is just too much for just the kind of puppy love and so on. I hope I can somehow move on in a different way from what I am in the past, to become a better person and to be more sensible.