'Ello~ long time no post in my blog. Not very nice of me to not inform u guys abt my life, but at least i'm doing something tonite, errrr, this morning. hehe. Came back from Peter Pan not long ago, quite a nice romance story for teens. Watched The Last Samurai not too long ago too, a very very nice show.

something else happened to me today, started to have major memory flashback, of what had happened to me in the recent years. i didn't feel sad, but my fren was with me, and she felt it, or at least that's what she claimed. then after a lot of soul searching (pun not intended) i managed to get over and learn what i had to learn from this memory flashback.

Then it happened.... i asked her for a hug, and she promptly agreed, this really caught me by surprise, perhaps because i dun expect a ger to agree to such a request, but... the hug i got, eased the suffering i had in my mind by a bit. but i realised sumthing else.... my feelings are still out of control... so i need more time to settle things....

on to the past, the month has been alright for me, less for one thing, my crush that i mentioned in my previous posting, rejected me already, i didn't fill it in. but that didn't really matter now, for my target is more or less "revealed" to me. at least for what i seem to noe.

still a matter of time before i make my decision and try to have another go at a r/s. hopefully my confidence and my emotions are more stable by then.....

never before have i felt this way,
beside a fren of great need.
warmth that i recieved heals more than i need,
and adds something else to my life