Emotionally Unstable I


You are trying to evade your problems and difficulties and tensions by 'leaping before you look'. This could be construed as a 'panic' situation and panic is an irrational fear - 'loss of control'. You are desperately seeking a way out of it all and because of any headstrong decisions that you may be making this could lead to an extremely dangerous situation. Slow down - matters seem to find a way of resolving themselves. Without sounding complacent remember that 'all's well that ends well'.

You are working extremely hard trying to improve your image in the eyes of others. You are looking for acknowledgement from your peers and those who come into your sphere of influence. You want to be liked, not for what people think of you but for what you really are.

You are prepared to establish a particular relationship that is being made available to you at this time. It could be a satisfactory liaison but there could be a certain amount of conflict involved -try to avoid direct confrontation at all costs.

Inherent in you is suppressed agitation. This is due to the fact that you are finding it increasingly difficult, if not impossible to relax. You are driving yourself to a state which is possibly beyond the capacity of your resources. Of late you have been impatient, irritable and hectic. This situation is indicative of hypertension or other stressful disorders. An unsatisfactory state of some close association is intolerable. Trust and self-esteem have been lost and you feel that you are unable to do anything to restore the belief, affinity and mutual trust. You feel powerless to change the situation which is the result of complete and utter disharmony.

Anxiety and a restless dissatisfaction, either with circumstances or with unfulfilled physical or emotional needs are producing considerable stress. You react to this by blaming everyone but yourself. You are aggressive, sarcastic and embittered. Try to be understanding and a little flexible - it will pay dividends in the long run, and it could well be that accordingly all of your dreams could soon be realized.

My Thoughts...

Its kind of true that I am in a "loss of control" state of mind and nothing that I do seems to be going the way it is expected of. I need a certain acknowledgement from friends around me, something that can give me the driving force to be motivated in being me. This is mainly because the friends around me aren't that true to me as I expected (maybe I wasn't true to them enough? Yes?)

Relationship? That won't happen as I have finally realised something - I do not know what is love and how to love. Ironical as it sounds (since I've been searching for a partner for some time now), I can no longer have any faith no courage to be with someone.

I admit that I'm a living bull-dozer that only goes one direction and is always on the move. I am an insensitive person that only cares about myself (correct me if I'm wrong).