Sometimes Love Just Ain't Enough

I don't wanna lose you
But I don't wanna use you
Just to have sombody by my side.
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry.
And I don't really matter
To anyone anymore.
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.

Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall.
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just want to have it all.
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain.
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change.

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust.
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough.

And there's no way home
When it's late at night and you're all alone.
Are there things that you wanted to say?
Do you feel me beside you in your bed?
There beside you where I used to lay.

And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

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Somehow, I find this song apt. It has been going on in my mind for a while already. I've been a fool, a stubborn one at that. There are many times I can see you holding back, your pain, your suffering, I see that you are not telling me things that hurts you.

I know what is going on in your mind, but I didn't want to discuss them with you, knowing that it'd hurt you more. I have said that trust is very important in any relationship, but from the way I see it, the more honest I am to you, the more sincere I am to you, it seems to be hurting you in another way. And you being the tactful one, seems to be keeping things from me, not wanting me to be hurt.

Pain and suffering is what most people go thru, a part and parcel of life. Difficulties in any given relationship (may not be just BGR) will arise anytime, only a matter of how it is resolved and not jeopardising the relationship.

Sometimes even if I know what's going on, I seem powerless to do anything. I can only ignore things that do not involve me, because this is my way of not letting you feel pressurised. Running seems like the only option, seems like the way where everything and everyone will be ok.

I'm a person who likes to reside in the fantasy world once in a while. Reality is what I tend to see. From the way things are happening, I feel that it is getting more and more out of hand. It is becoming more and more unfair for you, because of the effects of peers in your life.

It is already hard to balance out your life because of the complexity of the situation. Having to include the other people in your life; my life, seems to complicate the whole situation more.

Waves

I miss the sea. I miss listening to the soothing and calming waves that hits the beach. I miss the smell of the sea, the kind that makes you refreshed yet not making you alert.

The flow of water over long distances,
pushed and pulled by forces of nature,
reaches my heart as though I'm the beach.

Ebbs of time, of life and of love come and go,
failing to cherish it seems to be so easy,
sand trickling from my grasp, I feel lost.

Nothing seems certain, the waves move on,
there is form within the formless,
the waves carry my feelings out to the ocean.

Will it reach you? I guess not.
Will the sea echo out my thoughts to you? I know not.
Will I be just a silhouette or something else? I wonder not.

Waves will keep on moving,
just to find you, to be with you,
to carry away all your pains and sorrows.

Issyo ni Yakusoku desu.
一緒に約束です。

Ore no kimochi, omoi wa shinjitsu desu.
俺の気持ち、思いは真実です。