Heartless

Resting for such a long time ever since my failures at relationships, I have become more relaxed and somehow able to gather my heart from its shattered form. Feels like my heart is more ready to accept other challenges and seek for some form of emotional comfort that I have been missing for a long time.

Wondering about my present state and condition, about how was I able to be so lonely for so long. Found out that I am very susceptible to temptations, some which might lead me down the wrong path, or others, a chance at being in a r/s that might not last.

I have been noticing attractive girls/ladies/women and maybe "recovering" on my confidence on maintaining eye contact, yet still lacking a certain charismatic charm that can bring a smile to those I look at.

Heart

My compassionate heart seems to have taken over my "heartlessness" and given me some "emotion" in which has given me strength, strength of which I have never felt before. I have done a deed in which I never thought I would do.

Last week, after an arcade session with my buddy Poon, we returned to the World of JJ. What we saw was a kid running out of the shop very quickly and soon after, another of our buddy, Kenneth, came out looking very flustered and upon asking, we found out that his deck box was missing (inclusive of some rare cards that cost quite a lot of money). Poon and I went after the kid and fortunately for the little thief, I was the one who found him first (because Poon would give him a trashing before dragging him back to the shop for interrogation).

I caught the little thief red-handed as I noticed that deckbox in his hand and some cards that he doesn't play (VS marvel cards) and also the deck protectors (red transparent/translucent). He denied that the box was a stolen one, and wanted to run away from the responsibility of stealing, so I dragged him by his T-shirt collar and literally dragged him all the way back into the shop from the shopping center.

This action is one that I could never have done, and yet I have completed this simple task for my friend, Kenneth. My heart responded on instinct, and that proved that my heart is still present somewhere within me. Yet I still can't find out where it is....